I want to thank everyone for your support and encouragement after yesterday’s emotional post! I wasn’t feeling as emotional as I wrote it, because it had been a month since the meeting. But today I’m feeling it! The tears, the joy, so many thoughts running through my head! Life really is so hard, and it will be such a joy to receive total and complete healing one day when I meet my Savior…I can’t wait for heaven and the new earth!
But for now, I must give my hurts and fears to Him, and take time to enjoy the blessings and healing He is bringing to me at this moment. He’s been with me this far, and He’s with me still! There are moments I never thought I would see with family members, and there are moments I am stilling praying I will see one day. But God is faithful. He is always here to guide my steps…and my emotions. :> I’m so thankful for His comfort and love for me. Through everything in my life, I’ve always known He was there with me, like the Footprints in the Sand, and the one who’s hand I hold everywhere I go.
Ever since I had to make the difficult decision between obedience to head to the mission field in Ireland as planned, and my potential (actual) husband I had just met, 18 years ago, I have loved this verse. Why? Because I chose to obey God over my own desire, and he rewarded me with the desire of heart, which was also His will.
“Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4
It doesn’t say he’ll give you whatever you want, so do what you want. It says DELIGHT in HIM. If you do, His desires will become your desires! He had already told me that guy would be my husband, but I wanted to hold on for dear life so I wouldn’t lose Him. God wanted me to TRUST HIM and OBEY, instead of changing my mind out of fear. What blessings I would have missed if I hadn’t gone! And I would have missed blessings if I hadn’t been brave enough to meet with my very first mother this summer! I always hold on to the scripture that says, ” He will restore the years of the locust,” because I’ve had a lot of locust years in my lifetime, but that verse gives me hope. And I’ve already seen some of His restoration and I’m thankful.
Thanks for allowing me to ramble on a bit in the aftermath of an emotional experience!